After two pregnancies I'm left with no babies to hold. My son passed away at 4 1/2 months old after bravely, and with more strength than any hero, battling his heart condition. He was doing so well, and it happened so suddenly. He was fine that morning, and then his heart stopped. I never thought I would lose another one after miscarrying last year. I think this has been the worst year of my life, but I had the best four months of my life smack dab in the middle of it. I wouldn't trade those four months for anything.