Relationship/Parenting Vent

I used to want a big family, at least 5 kids. That was before I had a kid. Then I thought, ok no more than 3. My son is about to hit 9 months and is still occasionally very clingy but is just now starting to sleep 4 hour stretches at night and I'm finally getting some sleep. I also suffered from PPD but we make that awkward wage where I can't afford insurance but Medicaid won't cover me so I couldn't afford to get a prescription for medication and had to pull myself through it on my own while adjusting to being a parent. My husband has worked at 2 different car dealerships l, the first he wouldn't get home until 10-11pm every day but only worked 15 mins away so I was able to go see him often. He left and went to another dealership and the hours are better but he's still getting home 830-930pm and he's now a 30 min drive so I'm pretty much doing 100% of the parenting. I'm finally getting to a point where I'm used to having a majority of the parenting and my PPD is fading and my son is somewhat on a schedule. Just the thought of having to go through all of this again with a second child almost sent me into a panic. I had mentioned before to my husband I might not want a second kid and today I said it again and he got mad. Then later was sulking and pouting because he wants at least 1 or 2 more. We're already fighting a lot and very disconnected. It's been 2 weeks since we've even had sex and he shows no signs of being interested in me, despite my best efforts to "seduce" him. He straight up refuses and pushes me aside. Yet he's always asking if I love him and claiming I don't act like I love him. I'm starting to feel like we're not going to make it. We did couples counseling but all that came out of it was he learned ways to point out what I'm doing wrong without taking any blame himself. I just need a place to vent and hopefully someone else has been here and has some encouragement or advice...