Help!! Having a hard time quitting smoking & I’m almost 30weeks😔

I know I will get a lot of people who will look down on me for this but please, keep it to yourself as I am having a hard time and looking down on myself for it! I’ll be 30 weeks pregnant on Thursday’s. I know alt will strongly disagree with this but smoking marijuana has been literally the only thing that ya helped me get through my pregnancy. This is my first pregnancy & ive been struggling a lot with morning sickness. Trust me, YES I have tried pretty much everything you can besides smoking and nothing helps! I have cute back a tremendous amount on how much I smoke but I just can’t seem to stop. Legit I push myself to not smoke just so my body can go through this in its own but still even just a hit or two of a joint makes me feel so much better.

So people will say I’m getting my baby high but that’s the thing, I’m not even smoking enough to get high, that one or two hits I take when I’m really feeling sick (which is 75% of them time) helps me body so much, within minutes after I don’t feel sick to my head & stomach and my back stops aching. I have tried to just wait out being sick and go without taking a hit off a joint multiple times & for a long period of time of course but literally I only feel worse!

Also before this pregnancy for 3-4years I’ve had stomach problems and haven’t been able to gain weight or have an appetite as was just sick all the time and smoking pit is what got me through it but being pregnant has only made feeling sick 10 times worse and I know I need to quit but I’m seriously having a hard time because anything else I’ve tried for sickness just hasn’t worked.😔

Someone please I know this is a topic not many people go public about but, I need too! I need help & this is the only place where I thought I might be able to find someone who could relate & not judge or maybe just have some advice! I’ve been really scared about everything with cps! I know drug tests are mandatory because there are a lot of moms using hard drugs so marijuana is one thing they check for but I’m nervous about what happens if it is in the babies system!!