venting

So my husband gets annoyed when i talk about getting pregnant I guess i dont realize how obbsessive i can be about it. i dont have any friends and always thought being open was a good thing.. now i just feel like shutting him out but i know if i do that ill become alone and it will tear me apart. hes not a compassionate lover doesnt like being touched or cuddling always complains he gets to hot won't allow hand holding ... i just want to cry right now. please tell me im not alone!!!