its my Fault

so my fiance aint shit but at the same time he is. he doesnt wanna get off his ass and work or go back to school. i started talking to a old crush and we got serious so serious that im in love with both of them the difference is my old crush can definitely make somethingnwhen he wants to he leaves out the door with a $1 or maybe nothing and can go home with bread in his pockets. my daughter loves both of them but calls my fiance daddy and i really dont wanna loose him well neither of them and i wanna make it work with my fiance like i wanna grow old with him hes faithful but he doesnt do anything. they both have 2 kids my side takes care of his kids while my fiance well ya get the point. idk what to do my hearts broken there hurt im still in love with them both and they both but want me having there kids (i got good kitty) which is depressing but idk i want my fiance back but i want my side to be my main😭😭😭😭