Strange feeling

Almost 39 weeks and this pregnancy (my first) has been awful mostly, so uncomfortable with the ligament pain and pubis synthesis, nausea barely able to walk or rollover, but as bad as it feels.. I’m now suddenly super scared I didn’t picture feeling like this but It came suddenly I can absolutely not picture having a little baby 😨 so I went from being excited to be approaching due date to feeling like maybe I don’t want her to come out 😂 obviously that not an option but I’m getting extreme anxiety all the sudden like is this really happening a little girl is going to be depending on me for everything