HE wants a baby now!?

Ok so ever since my princess turned 1 I wanted to have another baby and I asked him but he said no that we don’t need another and that we are fine. So after, it was just a long issue until we separated for a while and I finally agreed because I spent one night with my niece and figured I really like my sleep and a baby will interrupt that. So we were finally back on track and worked things out. We’ve been back together for a while now. My baby just turned 2 in August and I couldn’t be prouder. I now usually always make sure we are fully loaded with condoms or a plan B pill in case of emergencies. We had one Thursday when I came back from my moms and I thought ok well I’ll take the pill later since it’s the Ella that supposably works just as good on day 5 then it would on day 1. Yesterday we got good news and he got a better job offer so we celebrated with a bbq and he got me and we had more fun😉 again he finished inside of me. Now normally this would raise a huge red flag from the moment it started but I just thought he was too dunk and high the first night but he finally told me yesterday that he doesn’t want me to take the pill. He wants to put a baby in me, he wants another princess or maybe a prince this time. Now you got to understand, this man never wanted kids and after we had our princess he said we were good as a family of 3 and I finally agreed, and now he wants another?

First of all you’re trying to put a baby in me and don’t tell me until the second day? Second, we had agreed no more kids and now you drop this bombshell on me? Third, I don’t know how to react to this. I mean I’m happy but at the same time I’m not.

I’ll recap to why I’m not, my first pregnancy.... I was pregnant and alone.

Up until about 6-7 months when he showed up out of nowhere and even then we argued and just had different opinions about how things were gunna happen. I wanted to be prepared and he wanted to wait until the last minute. Then he doubted of being the father because he thought I was cheating when I got pregnant.

So I wanted nothing to do with him from month 8-9. Until he decided to step up when I needed a fan because it was so hot and I was almost due and it was just terrible but I realized he was still checking up on me in a weird creepy stalker way. So I let him be involved because the one thing I tried really hard to do was to let him know the situation and let him decide whether to be involved in our daughters life or not. As I assumed it started out as no and then turned into yes. We were still separated until about a month after my baby’s birth.

This is why idk how to feel about this. He has been completely changed since we got back together and in a completely positive way. He has done everything for our baby and myself. This man and I have had a truly beautiful start with a really hard middle but in the long run we’ve overcome so many things and here we are. It’s so overwhelming and just crazy. I can’t tell anyone because I don’t want anyone to know that we might try because if we don’t then I don’t want to hear anything about why we aren’t or that we should. So this is where I come to vent, so please help.