Doctor anxiety ?!

I've always.. always had doctor anxiety. I gave anxiety in general but I have a HUGE issue with doctors. It all got pretty worst when I HAD to go to a dentist and I was so nervous that I threw up and the hygienist laughed that I threw up over nothing when they hadn't even put anything in my mouth yet. now I really fear other doctors will notice my anxious behavior and make jokes about it. ANYWAYS, we are going to begin TTC very soon and I've wondered how I will handle the doctor but since it's been 5 years without insurance and no doctor visits I've just hoped I had grown out of it.. WRONG. we went to the doctor yesterday for my husband.. the visit has nothing at all to do with me. I was fine all during the wait in the waiting room then the nurse came to get us and I immediately started to panic. I had to calm myself and remind myself the visit wasn't for me and that the doctor wouldn't even touch me. it was a scary realization that I have no idea how I'm going to handle prenatal visits. please advice? has anyone been through this?! I don't have insurance so going to a doctor about this is out of the question. I do have meddince I take for anxiety. my doctor 5 years ago wrote me enough prescribtions for it that I still actually have alot left and a prescription thay could still be filled. *qhen I get pregnsnt i will qualify for medicade so I'll have insurance during these visits.