In need of kind words and support

My husband and I conceived for the first time in Sept. of this year. Nov the 1st we went to the doctor for the first time. Our baby had stopped growing a week before. I had a D and C the next day. I haven't been able to talk to anyone about this. I dont want anyone to feel sorry for me or say im looking for pitty. However. It is killing me on the inside. I dont know if i have ever felt so much pain. In all this I had a huge fight with my best friend b.c she was going crazy and acting out b.c she went through the same thing a month before. Now she is pregnant again looking at jail time. I had to cut her out of my life. I feel so alone right now. My husband works a lot. Friends have lives of their own going on. Im nervous and depressed b.c i havent started my period yet. I have taken test but they said negitive. My heart feels like a teen girl whos heart was just broken for the first time.