im pregnant with my first child and the dad isn’t in my life anymore he says he wants to be in his sons life but that’s it . Im trying to look for an apartment to live at because i live with a friend but idk if i’m going to even afford it living on my own .i need to work right after my baby comes but i don’t have anyone to babysit . i have no family here in california , they all live in texas. and it’s too expensive to hire a nanny i don’t trust anyone. i don’t know what to do . im thinking of just putting it up for adoption even tho that’s the last thing on my mind💔