Do I have held off on posting this due to the jumble of emotions and honestly shame. But my husband after becoming verbally abusive out of no where, started demanding sex and when I didn't want to or didn't feel good would literally pitch a full blown fit. At one point he tore through the house and busted out the back door and started screaming and discharging his firearm. I locked him out and over the next two days he begged for forgiveness and blamed it on a damn demon having control of him. That to me is crazy talk. I told him he was a coward and needed help dealing with his anger and not getting his way. After we reconciled he promised he would go to counseling (which he never did.) I found him lying about little things that he would blow up about when confronted. I had asked him to please buy just a box of diapers with every paycheck since I paid all of our other financial necessities and was saving for maternity leave. He never bought ONE D@MN box! So I came home from work early one day and saw him headed to work at 4:45 pm when he told me he went into work at 10! So when he came home from work 3 hours later (I work 11 hour shifts!) I asked him why he lied to me. This escalated to him screaming and slamming his fists not the bed screaming "what is wrong with you" then jumping on top of me and pinned me to the bed. I had to kick him off of me then he tried to trap me in the closet. I got free, grabbed my dog and left. I filed for divorce and he is saying that I making him out to be a monster. He has had his brother in law calling and texting me saying that in wrong for not trying to go to counseling and it is wrong of me to end a marriage over text!

Sorry for the length and bad grammar, just stressed :(