Hey guys,

As the title says, I just found out that I am actually having twins yesterday and I feel terrible because I’ve never been so scared in my life. I’ve been fighting infertility and longing for a child for years and I was so excited to be pregnant! But since I saw that there are two yesterday I’m terrified and nothing else. Being able to afford one was already a stretch and I’m extremely disorganized. I have no idea what we are going to do and I feel like my life is over... which again makes me feel like a terrible person.

I feel like I have nobody to talk to because everyone else who only has single babies is like oh HOW EXCITING! And I’m like maybe if you only have to see them once in a while but TWO babies all the time to care for and pay for? That’s terrifying! Like they are unable to put themselves in my shoes and think of reality. Twins are just a novelty to them. We knew twins were a possibility with <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">fertility treatment</a> but it took us so long to conceive at all that we never even fathomed 2 babies actually happening. My husband has a good job but I run a business that takes about 80 hours a week. I’ve spent 6 years building my business and I feel like it’s just gone. I want to be excited but if I’m honest I’m just devastated. I want a baby so bad. We have prayed since our <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a> that it would just be one healthy baby.

Sorry for the emotional rant. I’m so freaking scared. I don’t know how I am going to do this.