already starting to despise being pregnant!

Christina • Mother to an angel in heaven. preparing for ttc for baby #1

first of all i hate the attention I get with family knowing somehow without me telling them. second I have more than 2 dozen faintly positive tests and only 1 BFP & then 2 more faint positives after bfp. I thought I was 6 weeks come to find out after actually calculating using a calendar and starting from my O day I'm actually late in my 4th week or 1 day into my 5th week. as you may figure that may be up for question also since pregnancies progress naturally. I'M SHITTING PANIC OUT OF MY MIND & really wondering if all of this time and effort was really worth it now that I'm pregnant... How many of you ladies can relate to any of the above? Also I'm 22. My boyfriend lives in another state and I have a good friend who happens to be a guy that has been more supportive than my bf!? as a matter of fact I haven't even told my boyfriend cause I'm scared of being let down.