I'm really ready to just say fuck it, I'm never going to have anyone. I'm 30 and everyone my age has someone. even my 50+ year old stepmother has a boyfriend she's been with for 9 years. All i ever seem to attract are men who use me for sex and then leave, or men who wouldn't care if I was dying on the street and never bother to contact me. I've had chances at real love when I was younger and now thoughts of those men and how kind they were to me torment me and make me feel like I threw away my only chances in the naivety of youth. I am so tired of trying when every outcome ends the same and I'm ready to just go off and stick my head in an oven. in my opinion, life is not worth living without a person you love beside you. Love forgot me and I just don't know what to do or how to feel. I'm so tired of feeling lonely, worthless and unlovable.