So 11 months ago my boyfriend of 1 yr and 7 months cheated on me and left me for another girl (the girl he cheated with). I could not talk to a guy for months and I felt like the world was endingggg. He cut off all connection with me and would not even tell me why we were coming to an end. Which I later found out why, he found someone else.

Since then, about 7 months after the break up I began talking to someone and turns out he was only looking for sex. Harsh thing is I latched on to him and was building feelings but nothing too drastic.

Few weeks later this guy hit me up on social media that has mutual friends and we began to talk and “dated” for about two weeks. Again, turns out he’s a pendejo (dumbass) that pretty much only wanted a girlfriend to say he has one. One of those guys.

Last one here, CHILDISH AS A MF. We would be in a store shopping and the bra section in a close proximity and this boy. Starts laughing.

My instant reaction to that ^. So I quit with that and faced the fact that he still needs some machuering to do.

Now keep in mind this is only during about a 4-5 months span. All the while, my cheating bitch of an ex is happy and going on one year with his new girl that graced him with her presence while we were still together.

NOW I have spotted this guy that appears to be intelligent, good looking, and my type overall. A friend of mine asked him if he knew about me and his response gives me somewhat of a hope saying that he didn’t but I am pretty. So, hopefully I am able to meet him and get to know him. Hopefully, he is a good guy that can be there for me.

I have felt so empty for the previous months and truly loved and still do love my ex. Not a strong love like I’ll die without him but a love that is still lingering there despite who he is. I love who he was while we were dating and the memories we have. But I am looking for someone to make me happy and give me hope in this species that we call male.

PLEASE wish me LUCK! 🍀