I miss my friend

So a few weeks ago I had sex with a close guy friend of mine when we first tried to do it he couldn’t get hard the 2nd time we did it it was way too rough and the last time we did it everything went smoother but its possible he accidentally came in me however we literally never spoke about any of it as if it never happened. Afterwards I’ve seen him a few times but I had i to initiate it and it wasn’t for long he still acts the same for those brief moments but he doesn’t come over anymore I’m so use to seeing him everyday or at least hearing from him I’m starting to regret the whole thing I miss my friend i don’t know what to do anymore..

Update: so as of this morning I found out I am officially pregnant.. we have been back to normal the last week and a half but no I haven’t told him yet and idk know how 😩😩 I’m 4 weeks our baby is the size of a poppyseed apparently 😭