ALRIGHT YALL I'M SHOOK

So I started talking to this guy who I've been friends for forever, and I knew he always liked me and I always had feelings for him too but we never acted on them. well, we're acting on them now and since my birthday is Friday, he bought me a fucking tv (my family doesn't have cable and I've never had my own tv so this is like super considerate) this is also my first time being involved with someone more than a year older than me *(he is 5 years older I'm 19 he's 24) so today we were fooling around and he pulled out his dick and BIIITTTCHHHH. I have literally never seen a bigger dick in my life!!!! like I'm horrified because I couldn't fit it in my mouth. I'm 4'10 and I weigh 90lbs I'm a little person and I have no idea if this is going to hurt or feel good when we finally have sex. I am so scared. Has anyone had a situation where they saw a fuckin' monster cock and they were or werent able to handle it???? (I'm talking wide AND long) I'm so scared