Does he deserve me?

Syida

Yeah Me and my boyfriend are going threw a rough patch right now. Me and him have no each other for year been dating for seven months. From the beginning I’ve known that he wanted a threesome. And I’m cool with that as long as it’s a one time thing and less he doesn’t talk to her after. He’s not the lovey-dovey type. When were alone he is very sweet and loving but he doesn’t really post me on Snapchat or anything like that. I don’t want our relationship to be based off social media so with that I don’t really care, but he doesn’t ever really hype me up. Like I would have to ask him if I looked good today he wouldn’t just be like “babe you look good”. And if I asked him if I look pretty today he be like you were pretty every day. That’s besides the point point but in the beginning of a relationship he was kind of flirty towards other girls. He would always see that he didn’t know he was flirting but now he’s aware that I do not fuck with it and he stopped. OK so earlier this week he was over my house and he told me that he deleted Snapchat because he needed more storage and he was going to get it later when he needed to Snapchat history. So when he left my house I sign into Snapchat on my phone. He didn’t know that I had his pass

I completely know that was completely wrong and I invaded his privacy and everything but I just want to see what was going on. Long story short there’s nothing there but he caught me. After two minutes of me being in his Snapchat he calls me and says “sy? Did you just log into my Snapchat?” I panicked and I said no. Then he said “that’s weird because you’re the only person I know with an iPhone 8. Don’t lie to me.” And since I’m such a bad liar I was like yeah I did sign into it and he got upset. I have got his password because one time I was helping him do something for work and he just happens to be the same password so I had it. But after that conversation we had on the phone he was like I don’t want you having my passwords and stuff like that so we’re gonna break up. So we break up and he blocks me off of his messages and everything‘s not talking to me and we were together so it’s really weird but whatever. I was like Monday today Saturday we hung out and had sex. But he was completely fucking me. Like he didn’t even try to kiss me like I was on top riding him so he could know what he’s gonna miss and I tried to kiss him and he didn’t want to but he did.

So after that we took a nap and when he woke up I tried to talk about it but he didn’t want too. So he calls his friend and ask him to go to this strip club me and him were supposed to go to. One of our friends from work is having her birthday party there and he low key uninvited me. So before he left I was trying to find out if we were getting back together or not and he said it just wasn’t fun being in a relationship with me anymore. So I get sad instantly. And I was like okay let me walk you out. He goes for a hug and I’m on the edge of tears and I hug him. So then he try’s to kiss me and I go in almost but then I just turn away and don’t kiss him and walk to me room as I said bye. So then he’s like can I get a drink before I leave. And I was like yeah you know where the refrigerator is and I go to my room. So I hear him open your fridge and then he comes into my room and I’m Sitting on my bed and he comes up and gives me a hug and just lays on top of me hugging me and I start crying I couldn’t control it.

So then he leaves and I call him like ten minutes after. Basically on the phone he was saying that he didn’t wanna be in a relationship and that it wasn’t for him and all that bullshit. And l asked if he saw me in his future. And he said as a friend. So then I asked what do you wanna do and he said can we just keep on fucking...

Then I get upset but like the dick is good so I was thinking maybe that’s not a bad idea. And I was like are you gonna fuck anyone else? He didn’t reply he just said are you? And I said no. And he said why not? And I said I don’t just go around fucking people. So then he was like what do you want to do and I was being sarcastic and I said let’s just fuck. Then he was like no way really and he’s like should I hit you up like every day you’re no no not every day every other day once a week? How often do you wanna fuck? And I got so upset I started crying and I was like how do you want the benefits of a relationship but not want to be in one? And I was like let’s just be done and I hung up. He calls back and says I think the call got disconnected.

Then he asked me why do I even like him. And girl I couldn’t answer. Like I don’t even know why I like him. I know I do I just didn’t have a reason. And he was like I don’t know either so then he was like we clearly have feeling for each other so I think we just need to re-evaluate. He was like let’s not call this a break up. We are just taking time to re-evaluate and see what we want excatly so I was like okay I’m cool with that. And that’s it. So like idk. Do you think I should just end it because like we don’t know why we like each other. He’s literally my only friend and he’s helped me with so much. Idk though. Here’s some pics of us being happy and shit