I went out with my 2 best friends (they are hubby and wife) yesterday who recently told me they are expecting a baby. They are now 8 weeks.

They know the issues I have and are very careful around me. But they are obviously excited, and I’m excited for them. But last night it just became too much. We were saying that the baby is the size or a raspberry. After dinner we went to Tesco’s to look at, you guessed it, raspberries. They were so excited. So happy. I just couldn’t be part of it. I left them to it and went to look at Christmas stuff.

I love them both dearly. But tell me this will get easier. It breaks my heart....

I’m so happy for them. They’ve been trying for so long. But i want my own little baby to celebrate.

I know they feel bad and that makes me feel worse.. they shouldn’t have to worry about me.

Does this get easier? Xxx