Help needed please...:(

Keelee • Baby E 08/11/2020👶👨‍👩‍👧🌈🌈 JellyBean 15-7-17 Pip 15-10-17 Sprout 5-9-18 Seed 01-04-19 all to precious for earth 👼👼👼👼 3 miscarriages and one ectopic 💔

So I had my second miscarriage 20th October 2017 (that makes it two miscarriages in three months!:( ) I bleed for a week and a half and then nothing, doctors checked to make sure my HCG level was back down to zero (which it was back down to 6 and dropping fast) I then bleed 7/8th of December 2017, it was dark brown and only when I was wiping, looked similar to my miscarriage. However I’m starting to get all the symptoms I previously had when I found out I was pregnant, like strong sense of smell, aching boobs, crying at everything (this included the Nescafé advert (UK)) and still no period. Does anything think there could be a change I’m pregnant again? I’m just so scared to test, not only because I want it so bad but also I don’t know how I’d cope if I was and I miscarried again. Any help, advice or support would be appreciated! Thank you in advance! ❤️