BFN - depressed tired of this already 😥

I'm 9DPO so I think just going off app. I have PCOS I'm 22 years old and I tested today because I have been having pregnancy symptoms but got a negative. So maybe they are just period symptoms. I was pregnant when I was 18 but miscarried. Ever since then I've been TTC and nothing. I get more depressed and discouraged. I want to have a family already with my husband. If I'm not pregnant by the new year my doctor will start me on clomid. I've had younger cousins announcing their pregnancies with guys they have only dated for 3 months and I just break down crying. I don't like this all I want is to be a mother. 😥