Hi guys, brace yourselves- this is a kinda long story 😅. So recently I have been drifting from God. I was a devout Catholic back in the day but I suffered from depression and anger issues since I was 13. i wasn't born in the country do when I first moved here at 7 years old I was bullied alot for my accent and therefore I didn't have any friends for a while until I was 11. when I turned 12 I moved schools and again was bullied which caused my depression, however u was always a devout Catholic despite that. when I turned 16, I finally started to feel happy with my life and my journey with God and was cleared by my councillor (which was an amazing feeling!). fast forward to my first year of college, I had a hard time adjusting but everyone goes through that, and i had still had God right? however 2nd year of college REALLY took a toll on me and my spirit - the course was hard and I always felt so lonely , I had friends but I felt no special connection to them and my depression came back. exams were hard, i didn't have much support and at this point my relationship with God was in shambles. now I'm in my 3rd year of college, I missed the Catholic youth camp i usually go to every summer, I don't go to church that often and i lost my virginity a month ago (with a random friend I didnt care much about- I was still hurting because i found my then boyfried cheated on me 6 times) . I went to confession because it was the right thing to do but I honestly did not feel guilty for what I did. I'm at the point where I don't even care anymore about myself or the people around me much but I feel alone AND lonely all the time and it's driving me crazy. I don't know what to do anymore, God isn't my number one priority anymore. I hate how much I've changed in just one year. what do I do guys. (speaking to my parents is not an option , they are VERY overbearing and trying to get how I'm feeling across can be hard - i love them with all my heart though 😊) p.s. I'm 21 now