Ok so I kissed this boy at a party Saturday and he apparently does actually like me, but he doesn’t talk to me much. We never really did talk a whole lot but he does talk to my friends at school that he doesn’t want he to know he’s thinking about the whole situation and told them that he’s liked me for a long time (but he says that about everyone he likes so) but that he’s scared it won’t work out and he doesn’t want to take the first step but that he would say yes if I asked and all that stuff.

Now I was already kind of upset about that but I thought about it more and I know I told him in the past how I can get really bad anxiety and how I always get really intrusive thoughts where I genuinely believe everyone hates me, and I just feel it’s so inconsiderate how he’s treating the situation?

Idk it could just be me being selfish but I just feel kind of hurt by everything so yeah...

(also: it’s not like he ignores me or anything he like smiles and waves and stuff when he sees me at school and replies to my snapchats, it’s just that we haven’t really talked and we don’t really text)