For the last 7 weeks:

The lights go off at 6pm latest,

Haven’t watched tv or had any entertainment to keep home quite,

Constant LOUD white noise at home,

Constant breast feeding,accumulates to 14-15 times and 6-7 hours a day,

Constantly eating of oat meal and drinking fennel tea to keep up with demand,

Dealing with baby’s unbreakable, “eat- over eat( to soothe herself)-get gassy-vomit-poop-diaper change-feel hungry and eat again BUT get super cranky because couldn’t sleep” cycle for 24/7.

Tap baby’s back to help her relief even during those precious very short and little sleep times of her so no sleep for mommy

Dealing with hemorrhoids because of not going toilet enough to keep baby asleep in arms or at least to keep her calm

Has not been able to go out with family/friends because the first two attempts were hell-ish. Seeing friend’s newborns sleeping in stroller the whole time made it even worse

Reading forums where moms complaining about not getting more than 4 hour stretches🤦🏻‍♀️

Has been killing me... I feel jealous all the time when I see/hear people with newborns are out. I am at solitary confinement. Even when we go out it is only me and baby, she is in her sling and she cries if I stop walking, if I sit down or if I speak to anyone.. she cries even I don’t do so.