lost in my own mind right know

Alyss

im at auch loat of worda i dont even know what to think anymore.... me and my fiance have been together almost 7 years and the past month he has been very off... it all startrd to the fact that i caught him watching porn while i was at work. i confronted him about it and he flipped out to the point where he smashed walls and then was crying on the floor after i confronted him about it we wernt talking for about 3 days or so then we were good getting alongs things was some what back to normal. then next day hr was back to being very weird acting off twards me not wanting to kiss me hug me nothing..m still is acting like that with me since then he has then accuced me of talking to someone else. hes been so miserable his excuses after excuss. so he was telling me hes miserable bc my daughters bday was coming and were low on money but then once we got her birthday figured out she had a good day he next went on to the fact that we dont have anything for the kids for Christmas and wanta kids have good chriatmas... so we had actualy got some help with Christmas and now we have got help and got the kids gifts more then i expected which im so thankful for. now he is startrd this new idea that i have a secret relationship with one of my best friends who iv been friends with for like 9 years. and remind you this all came out because iv been catching him keep looking at me and her text and snap chats and everything to do with me and my best friend and last night i had it i flippd out asking him why hes always looking at her ahit with me and thats what he told me that iv been being secretive with my best friend about something.... and before that has been said the same night i caught him watching porn we did end up having sex that next morning and he mentioned my bf while we were having sex asking to bring her to have a 3 some... im so lost and so confussed to what to think or so anymore at all.... is he talkig to someone secretly does he want my bf like what is going on