for the past few years 5 to 7 really... I've had a hard time with life in general. struggles that were normally very easy to face and deal with have now become harder and more difficult for me to over come. the only human being on this planet that has been able to soothe and help me get my mind set back on track is my uncle. And he lives states away and has his own family kids wife business all that. some times I find my self rereading text messages from when he would text me to to just check up and give me words of encouragement. Just to get my self threw the battle I'm facing at the moment. he saved my life and made me realize things I would have never seen on my own. I feel bad cuz in a way my SO struggles with doing that same thing for me. helping me cope see things threw a different light making things better. but I don't reach out to my SO like I do my uncle. And I feel guilty for it afterwards. I'm not sure if I'm crazy or if I'm just struggling