I've been looking for a place like this for a while to write this letter of apology to you.

We have been divorced for almost a year, and were only married four months before I fell in love with someone else. Now I'm remarried.

What kills me the most is that he and I don't laugh the way you and I used to do. Don't get me wrong. I don't want you back. And I am happy without your incessant melodramatic attitude. However, this gets to me for some reason.

What I've never been able to put into words before is, I left you years before emotionally. I left you when you made me get an abortion at 21 because you weren't ready. That's the bottom line. Now, I'm trying to have a baby that you never wanted because you wanted to be a famous actor and I wasn't enough for you in this life. And I fear as though I can't get pregnant because I'm being punished for following your orders. There. I said it. I miss you. I'll always love you. I'm sorry I left you and broke your heart. But you broke mine too.