i give up

I officially am giving up on ever getting pregnant. if its not one thing, its another and I'm exhausted. mentally, physically, emotionally, financially...I'm done.

first, its you have this and this and then it changes to something else. health care in my town is seriously a giant joke.

I finally find out that ive had an IUD stuck inside my body for ohhh 9 years is all after I was told by 2 different doctors 8 years ago that it had to have came out in a blood clot. finally got a dr to listen to me and do a ct scan and there it was, outside of my uterus. I thought, this has to be the reason I'm having so much trouble. surgery was scheduled, met with my surgeon, everything was set. then I get a phone call. we can't do the surgery without $3,300 down. excuse me? can I make payments? nope. insurance isnt paying a dime of it.

told the hospital to forget it. I'm just done.