My dad and I have been estranged for a year. His wife had my half sister a year ago and that’s when things started to get awkward. I felt out of nowhere she began isolating my father from me but I don’t really blame her cause he’s responsible for his own actions. Shortly after I got pregnant with my son, my father tried to convince me to abort him. Actually, he made my life hell in order to force me to abort and when I refused to have an abortion he ignored me. I didn’t hear from him once the whole pregnancy. My father is narcissistic and has OCD. He rarely takes accountability and is all about appearances and putting on a show rather than addressing any issues. I always felt he was emotionally absent and our relationship was never really fulfilling. Anyway, I had my baby a month ago. I got a congratulatory text from him randomly and I ignored it. He texted me again last week saying he wanted to talk I also ignored that. I don’t think I’m ready to talk to him.. I guess he decided to relay the message to me through my brother cause my brother called to say that our dad wanted to meet my son and asked when I would be free to meet with him. Now, my dad would never come to my house and I’m not welcome in his home so I know he’d want to meet at a restaurant or somewhere public but there’s no way in hell im taking my 4 week old to a restaurant. Besides I don’t know if I want him to meet my baby at all. I’m just so angry I’m so hurt.. he and his wife won’t let me see my own sister so why does he get to meet my son? At the same time I feel like if I don’t allow them to meet I’ll regret it in the future. I’m so torn and confused and heartbroken I want to be enjoying my son yet I find myself thinking about this constantly 😔

I’d also like to point out I was diagnosed as bipolar 5 years ago been in therapy and medication although I got off the meds once I got pregnant. I’m considering starting them again this situation isn’t helping and I can feel the depression returning slowly. Please keep in mind I’m very sensitive right now before you respond negatively thanks I appreciate your time.