Depression

So, I’ve been going through a lot lately. I’m always so angry at everything. I’m mad at the world. And my depression is terrible. I say disgusting things to myself. Like sometimes I can’t even look in the mirror because I get very upset. And I’m not as close to God as I was a few months ago. I take my anger out on Him. I feel really bad for it. I just don’t know what to do anymore. And I made this anonymous so nobody would think I was looking for attention. I’m just generally not okay. And I just want to know what I should do.