Brown Specks When I Wipe 😕

PLEASE READ ENTIRELY 🙏🏽 : This is SO embarrassing but I haven’t had health insurance since I was like 17 or 18 (still don’t). The last actual Pap smear I had was at 17. I’ve been checked recently but it was in the emergency room like 3-4 times for the SAME issue. They always say something different and prescribe me different medication. It only helped once and I think that was the first doctor who prescribed me metronidazole l for a bacterial infection but it came back about a year later. I always get get diagnosed as either bacterial or yeast infection. The yeast infection meds never work (I’ve also tried over the counter monistat) but the metronidazole did. Sometimes they say there’s nothing wrong at all but y’all know that as women we know when things are off in our bodies. The symptoms are getting worse now with itching and soreness (at first it was just the brown specks). I’ve also been tested for std’s especially herpes because of the occasional soreness. I’m SO confused and disgusted I don’t even wanna be touched and haven’t been sexually before or while these symptoms have been here. Also most importantly I have brown specks frequently when I wipe even like 30 mins to an hour after showering. The doctors never see it because you know they always make you wipe with that wet cloth before you urinate even though I ALWAYS tell them about it, they always say they’ve never heard of that symptom and treat me as though I’m delusional. I’m thinking about wiping with toilet paper before the wet wipe so I can show them next time. I really need help has anyone else gone through this or know what it is???