It’s been a year since I had my abortion. I know I made the right decision. My boyfriend and I have been together 8 years but we’re only 23, not financially stable enough for a child even though I am sure we would have had plenty of support we just weren’t ready. But that doesn’t mean I don’t feel insanely sad. I always think about how life would have been. I have several friends who have had kids or are currently pregnant and I love them and am so happy for them. But the twinge or jealousy maybe ? Or envy? Hits me every time I go to buy them something. I see their bellies or anything related. I know eventually it will be Ohkay. And I still stand by my decision but I still think about it.