Dear god

Dear god,

Why did you give me the happiness you did then take away? I wanted this so bad for so long.

Month after month I would get those negative tests and I thought that hurt bad.

Then I finally got that positive, after years I was finally pregnant. I watched the second line get darker day after day.

Then when I went to bedlast night I started spotting and it scared me. On christmas eve I woke up to a lot of blood in my panties and when I took more pregnancy tests the lines were suddenly so faint I could barely see them.

Why do you hate me so much that you would give me the only thing I wanted then take it away?