So over it all

I'm just so over it all. Being blamed for everything, responsible for all financial matters for months on end with NO support whatsoever and tired of feeling like I have to and should be doing it since I'm having baby #2 with this man. He is not who I feel he should be and doesn't participate the way he should. He's a good dad but could work on that too as he has a horrible temper. Just recently got a job that I hooked him up with where I usto work. 1st time in 4 months that he payed half the rent with me which wasn't even half he was 30$ short. Minimum payments on his debts can barely keep up with all that I owe and he's ungrateful! He's not supportive! He's immature and irresponsible full of excuses and I'm fed up. I'm fed up of his lack of commitment of his bs about depression even though I carry the weight of this whole family on my 34 week pregnant back. I'm just fed up of all this shit. So over it. So disappointed in myself for choosing him! So disappointed that I didn't demand more and better from myself and my life so tired of taking care of an almost 30 year old man being fucking 22 I can't wrap my head around this pathetic life anymore. Barely making ends meat and pushing myself to my limittttt overly stressed financing all of us I'm done I'm pissed and idgaf anymore. If you don't want to do better for yourself and your family and your idea of extra money is selling drugs and fraud go live with some low life whore. I'm beyond fed upppp I can't take it anymore!! I'm breaking down had to buy a bunch of Christmas gifts for his family with the little money I had didn't even get my mother a birthday gift or Christmas gift he didn't chip in no lt 1 penny but requested to eat at his favourite restaurant I haven't done a single thing for myself this prg Nancy as obviously I have other financial responsibilities I've had the worst pains throughout my whole pregnancy and I've been wanting a prenatal

Massage to get my feet done since I can't bend to do them mys f and my feet are awful. I'm just so sad and tired sorry really had to vent