I’ve been having a long distance relationship with this guy that’s like 6months older than me, we’ve been dating for just over a year and a month. we’ve had some falling outs a few weeks after our one year anniversary and that’s where i started getting worried. Before anyone comments on this, I know that he’s real and not some pervert living in some basement. I have his facetime and everything is real, no modifications whatsoever and we share almost every social media i have. Right after our one year by like a week, he was mad at me for missing him so much, for saying that realistically we couldn’t go for lunch or ice skating or watch movies etc. like normal people would. I’ve had conversations like this with him before and i guess he just had enough and “dumped me.” he means the world to me and i started self harming. I thought of suicide daily and how he has impacted my life in such a positive way and i ruined that by being emotional. we got back together a few days later and i guess i accidentally mentioned i self harmed which introduced some pity into the mix as well. a few weeks later, he found someone to cheat on me with. both the girl and my boyfriend were friends with eachother and then my boyfriend started saying things like “you’re he missing piece to my puzzle.” etc. About a week after that happened she told me what he said to her and i absolutely lost it. so I can’t be even the slightest bit emotional, and you can go around, claiming you love practically everyone else but me? It’s ridiculous but... i forgave him. we’re back together and stronger than ever but i’m afraid that feeling would fade. We’ve both talked about meeting somewhere in the next few years or even this spring break for a concert i’m going to but that’s a BIG if. He’s told me about his life goals and has mentioned me moving in with him and it reassured me that i have a place in his future, i just can’t help and think that there’s going to be someone else . -anon (ps. i’m just looking for advice on what to do and what to think from an outsiders view. I’ll be semi-active today 12/24 because, funny enough i started my cycle today,, what a great way to spend christmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a>... thanks as always tho x)