Feeling pathetic... (Vent)

My baby's dad is so perfect, loving & everything I want up until I go through his phone. I see him texting his exes, making plans & telling girls he misses them. When i confront him he will make excuses & tell me it means nothing while apologizing & begging for my forgiveness. He will stop for a while then it happens again and I forgive him every time. I feel so weak.

I'm pregnant and I love him so it makes it so hard to leave. I feel so stuck because of the baby and his cheating makes me regret keeping my baby at times because a part of me wants to leave him. I don't actually want to leave, I just don't want him to talk to other women. It seems like too much to ask. When we're together it feels right but he's not loyal behind my back. I know he won't change but I can't help but think maybe he will after every time he apologizes. It's so bad to the point where if he is looking at his phone, I start to feel insecure. I'm a fool for staying with a liar but Im not strong enough to leave 😞