Cancer,strokes,drugs , mourning

Trying to find the light at the end of the tunnel. My grandmother has been sick for a while with cancer. She strongest woman I know. She took us (me and my siblings)in raised as her kids she didn't have to. She just had stroke she, okay but now they don't want her walking anymore.I called she told me I'm going home soon. I'm okay though. My mom just getting worse with her crack habit. She breaking it up in front of me. The dope man knocking on the door on. I came down to be with my Dad because his cancer is spreading from the stomach to his bones. He had emergency surgery which reason I rushed down. He told me he refuses to sit still because it will kill him. I can tell the toll taken on him. I'm supposed to be the strong one but right now fee. l weak. Tomorrow is my deceased sisters birthday thinking maybe need to go visit her gravesite. This so hard my daughter can't even beat my mom so spending most Christmas alone. I did cook though my mom lives in senior build a lot them wouldn't have eaten it didn't cook. Glad I could do something nice.