Just wondering if any of you ladies had a not-so-straightforward labour, and if it caused any kind of trauma/ptsd later down the line? Is this common after a very quick or traumatic birth?

This was my first pregnancy, and I went into early labour but was extremely calm for the whole ordeal. My waters broke at 32w while I was visiting a friend 6 hours away from home, so my partner and I drove back home, I was admitted to hospital where I stayed for 3 days, then was sent home. I dilated through the night but was so exhausted from the hospital stay that I slept between contractions and didn't start to really take things seriously until the next morning. I was fully dilated when I arrived at the hospital and my son was born an hour later with a natural, unmedicated delivery. I was tired and sore for the few days after but felt quite "normal" in myself and seemed to bounce back straight away. I spent 5 days in hospital, and baby stayed at the special care unit for 12 days- I visited all day every day after being discharged and was readmitted to stay with him for 2 days before he was sent home.

That was in October, and last week I was telling a friend about what had happened and started to have an anxiety attack. Then yesterday I tried to recall something from the day of my delivery and found I was l having trouble remembering a lot of it and was struggling to piece together the whole day, when up until now I could remember it like it was yesterday. I want to go visit the special care unit and take a gift and thank you card in for the staff and I also have some clothes to donate, but thinking about going back there makes me feel so uneasy and nervous and I can't bring myself to do it. I'm not sure what to do about the whole thing and don't want it to get worse.