So idk why but I constantly feel like I’m better off dead. And I have a boyfriend that loves me and would willingly show up at my house climb into my bed to make me feel betters I have parents and family that love me and even friends but everything feels useless. I wake up feeling tired, sad, and angry. I constantly feel like I’m all alone. I’m constantly confused by so many things- sexuality, family, life. I’m constantly plagued with the thought “why, I’m just going to die anyway”.I haven’t cut tho. I have been clean for 4 months but I can’t hold on much longer. Why do I feel this way. I just need someone to hear me