No connection

I’m having twins and I see everyone is who having twins on here so happy and excited and I’m well, not. Not that I’m not happy. But I just don’t feel any connection like I did with my first . I was happy and excited right away and bonded almost immediately with my first pregnancy. I’m about 10 weeks and known since about 5 weeks. I know I’ll probably feel different later but I’m having doubts that I will. My spouse and I have been going through a rough patch lately even before I got pregnant. Also when I got pregnant we kinda were on the fence about what we should do because we have a young one just about to turn one and we’re not in a good spot financially and our apartment is way to small for three small kids, plus with us on the outs more than not it’s just maybe taking a toll on my emotions on how I feel about this pregnancy .