I'm 18, and 29+4 weeks pregnant. I found out I was pregnant during my annual physical when I was around 16 weeks, mainly because I didn't suspect anything to begin with bc I had already missed my period due to dealing with a very stressful situation, so I figured it was just from that WHICH IT WAS FROM, for a month or so.

I'm terrified of telling anybody. My boyfriend and best friend know, but nobody else. I obviously can't get an abortion if my family members are all against it because I live in US (New York) where the limit is 24 weeks.

The reason I've waited this long is because I've been looking for doctors for WEEKS to verify it since my primary care doctor told me to.

I tried to contact various doctors and they never got back to me after I tried to email and call them, but nothing. The line would be busy, they'd have their entire schedule filled already, they didn't reply to my emails even if I kept trying. I kept looking for other doctors and the reviews were all AWFUL. The wait time would be for hours, the doctors would be rude or hurt you, the place would be dirty and run down, it would be way too far away from me, they aren't available on the only days I am, they close too early or open too late in the day, they don't take my insurance but if they did they still try to bill you, all that shit. I really really tried. I managed to find one recently but they were just horrible, so as you can tell it's very difficult for me to find one.

Now, at me being nearly 30 weeks and not having told my parents, I'm really scared. I'm really fucking scared. I waited such a long time to do it but I honestly had my reasons. I wanted to verify it but had a difficult, long time trying to do that. Not only that, but I've been scared as hell to do it.

My due date is around the beginning of March, and I'm still in school for a night program. I go in at 3 pm and end at 9 pm, Mondays to Thursdays. The point I'm trying to make is that I'm not home all day and I'm still in school so it's a difficult balance. All I can think of is seeing if my mom could watch the baby while I'm in school, then again she has my 5 year old sister to handle already.

The father works everyday except for Saturdays, and also has school in the same program that I do. We've been together for nearly three years, as of this coming February. School ends in June, and what's making it just a bit more tedious is that my engagement specialist in school (kind of like my counselor actually, I speak to her more than I speak to my counselor so I see her as one) keeps asking whether I'm pregnant bc I was sick and I'm tired a lot, and she's like "Get your diploma first! Finish school! Don't do it yet!" and I just keep telling her I'm not because I'm scared to even do THAT mainly bc she said that, so it'll feel like I just lied to her this whole time.

But yeah...I'm really scared of what's to come, and of telling anybody especially this late. I know I messed up. I can't wait to be berated and questioned as to why I waited so long and insulted for it lol.