I don't know where to start. I feel so exhausted and tired during my second pregnancy, my back hurts, tummy is about to pop and I have Braxton-Higgs contractions, which don't do any help in my situation.

At the same time I'm trying to develop my business which is event planning and, in fact, I have one wedding this week and another one next week. I don't charge much since I'm trying to make a good portfolio before charging full market price and yet it's hard to find clients. I make like $500 once in 3 month just because I cannot find the stable way of finding the customers. All this business thing was agreed with my husband from the beginning and he is providing for the family and my job is considered by him more as my "hobby", but for me it's a hard work because I'm not only Event Planner but also web designer, marketing manager accountant etc. and I have to learn how to do that from the scratch and I have to do that while staying 24/7 with 21month old kid.?

So now, when we are fighting with my husband over something he most of the times brings the fact that I'm making pennies and my business doesn't make any sense and he is super annoyed when I ask him to stay with our toddler so I could go meet a potential client or go simply work on the wedding.

Now, at 7 months pregnant I'm keeping on working, doing stuff for him and his business, taking care of our child and yet he is acting like an asshole instead of supporting me...

I feel hopeless. I have thoughts about divorce sometimes and question myself whether I love him. But really, when we are fighting I hate him and don't understand how we even got married and sometimes I'm feeling thankful for having a caring husband ....

But most of the time I'm thinking that I don't love him and that it's all a big disappointment how we live together because we are yelling at each other and our LO hears that and we might damage our child with that.

Oh, and another thing - he is such a stubborn and hardheaded that he truly believes that it's OK to give a child iPad most of the times just to shut her up and the same with sweets. And he truly believes that he knows better than doctors and pediatricians... She hasn't ate normal food for two days and she is asking for milk and I'm trying to make her eat porridge or something healthy (she already drank her milk today, and a juice, ate some cheese and raisins, and btw she has problems with her teeth already). So, he was yelling at me because he was insisting on giving her milk so she would stop yelling instead of waiting for her to get totally hungry so she would eat anything ...

So, now I'm questioning myself whether it's me who is crazy or there might be problem in him... please be honest! I need some nobody's opinion, because for me it looks like he is asshole, but maybe it's me who is idiot here?