I’m a bigish 24 year old woman mainly because I have a condition called hypothyroidism where (among other things) my metabolism is lower than everyone else’s and therefore it’s a real struggle to lose weight. Did I mention I also had a child? So I’m roughly 230lbs at the moment and 5’9ft tall, and trying to lose the weight.

Well I managed to snag an absolutely amazing guy💕💕 I’ve never gone for the handsome type before because (I thought) they would never be interested in me 😞 but boy was I wrong ☺️. I adore my now fiancé and he damn near worships the ground I walk on 😳 he loves my daughter like she was his own and she loves him to bits too! Like almost everything is right with this guy!!

But that’s now my problem 😢

He told me when we were dating that I was the biggest woman he’s ever been with....now it’s not his fault but that killed me...cause I felt like he deserves a woman with a better body than mine 😢 he says he loves me no matter what, and that I’m the most beautiful woman he’s ever laid his eyes on but..... I hate myself and I hate my body

I hate getting undressed for him because I’m self conscious and what he said keeps ringing in my head.....I wish I could afford to have surgery or something to get rid of all this weight cause even with eating right and minimal exercise I lose 5 inches and gain 8! It’s freaking depressing and I don’t know what else to do....how can I love him properly when I can’t even love myself?