First miscarriage

After 4 1/2 years trying my hopes were up. I’ve done everything right, tracking and timing. Then for the first time I was late, I’ve never been late for a period since my very first one however sometimes they show up early , but I’m typically like clock work. But this last month was different having all these strange things happening that never did before, late period for 3 days but that’s when it happened, that’s when my body decided it didn’t want to keep what would have been my baby! It decided to torture me with pain and lots of blood rather then keep the miracle of growth and joy. for the first time in 4 years I have this slight bit of hope that my husband and I have a chance,but I’m now terrified to have another miscarriage and so tired of being saddened with disappointment. How do I deal with this my baby would be 5 weeks and instead I have an empty womb and aching heart 👣💔 rest easy in the arms of god my child I had not the chance to meet 😭