So yesterday I️ was taking a shower with my husband. He was looking at my body and asked me maybe not in a rude way(IDK) about the black line in between my belly he said when is it going away and I️ replied with and I’m not sure I️ didn’t had it with my 2 other kids(It’s only been 3 weeks since I️ had my daughter) so he kept asking me about it like if he was grossed out about it.

And telling me it looked weird and stuff, so I️ broke down in front of him I️ told him I️ was already self conscious about my body and he wasn’t helping. Maybe he didn’t mean to make me feel bad 😞 but the father of my other 2 kids use to body shamed me all the time he use to called me fat and ugly and all kinds of ugly names he use to tell me how nobody was ever gonna want me because I️ was ugly and how other girls looked better than me after giving birth.

For a moment I️ had a flashback when I️ was in that bathroom he made me feel so horrible about myself. I️ know it may sound idiotic but for a while i thought my kids father was right I️ felt so worthless for years.

My husband thinks he said nothing wrong maybe he didn’t but he really hurt my feelings and he doesn’t seem to get it.

It felt like dejavú.I️ seriously wanted to grabbed my kids and just leave.

So here I️ am sitting in bed thinking about just giving up on our marriage, thinking on how I️ don’t want to go through another person body shaming me ever again. Specially coming from the one who is supposed to love you and protect you.