I'm Blind/Hurt

You guys i dont know what to do all i keep thinking about is my ex ,it's pretty obvious that he used me for sex but it sucks cause he was my first i just wanna hit him up i miss his presents its hard hes all i think about and i wanna talk to someone but i dont want to hes the only person that understands me i cant just up and leave him and cut him off like that 😢🤦🏻‍♂️