Am I crazy??

Cassy • Mom to a crazy toddler boy 👦🏻 TTC Baby #2

I haven’t had a “normal” period since the end September so I think something is wrong with me. I had weird spotting at the beginning of December. It was really light and brown; it only lasted 2.5 days. I didn’t even wear a tampon or pad. I go to the doctor on Jan. 24th for my yearly so I’ll talk to her about it then. In the mean time I’m still holding out hope that I’m pregnant despite the countless BFN’s. I had a friend who didn’t ever get a positive at home test and found out at 10 weeks that she was pregnant per a blood test. I feel like that is very rare, and I’m giving myself false hope. Does this make me crazy?