Almost 2 years ago I lost my 6 year old and my mom in a tragic accident, I got pregnant last year around this time and me and my husband were so excited cause we have wanted a baby for awhile now and all my son wanted is to be

a big brother and we were finally going to give him what he wanted even though he isn’t with us I know he would always be there watching over us. Well In February I ended up having a miscarriage I didn’t even get an ultrasound and my heart was broken once again, thinking to myself why can’t I have my kids here with me, am I not supposed to be a mom or what. I have been so depressed but I would always act like everything was okay cause I didn’t want nobody feeling sorry for me. Fast forward to this month. I found out I’m pregnant again and I’m so scared to go to the doctor and not hear that heart beat I want to hear. Praying when I go to my first appointment everything is fine!