Here's my story. (even though no one will read) I needed to vent

Hi I'm Danielle, I needed to vent and what better place to do it than here?

I really don't know how to start this but here goes nothing.

I was raised in an income based housing (projects). I am the only child of my parents to survive pregnancy. Growing up I didn't have allot but I had what I needed. My parents are disabled dad has sezures and mom can't read or write. They were terrified I'd end up like them. Dispite all of their worries I was somewhat normal. I haven't been in trouble or on drugs. Considering where I grew up everyone thought I'd be a minority. I didn't finish highschool but I'm working on my GED. When I hit my teen years things got hard. I had boyfriend who I thought I could trust ( I couldn't) he ended up raping me I had the flu and didn't want to have sex plus I was doped up on cough meds. It took me a year to. tell my parents. I didn't press charges because he moved back to New York and I didn't want to go through Court and see him again. I had another toxic relationship after that. The guy and I fussed all day and app night because I knew he was cheating and he kept gas lighting me saying I was guilty or insecure. Long story short my intuition was right. He now has twins boys by his mistress. I am marrying my childhood friend. I told him I loved him finally and he said he felt the same. He was the first person I told about the rape. He comforted me when I felt like I could go to no one else. we have had 4 miscarriages and have been together for 4 years. He is my soulmate and the reason I'm still here. He has talked me out of suicide many times.

If you got this far thank for reading. Sorry It might be a little scrambled my mind is racing.