Perfect Mommy...... 🤔😔

I always thought I'd be a perfect Mom. Do everything right and always be happy!! Man, was I wrong. I have 2 sons that are 13 months apart. They are 4 months old and 17 months old. I love them more than anything in this world and would do anything for them!! That's why I'm so sad that I have gotten frustrated when they are both crying, when I get stressed at one crying and waking up the other, when the 4 month old wants a bottle but doesn't take it, etc. I'm so disappointed in myself for getting frustrated with my babies!! They have no idea they are waking up the other. What kind of Mommy am I for getting upset at that? All the time I say that I don't deserve them! My Mom and husband tell me it isn't easy raising babies and so close together and I'm a good Mom. Everyone gets stressed once in a while but I don't think that's an excuse. I want to be the best Mommy I can!!!!!! They deserve the world and I want to give that to them!!! Thanks for listening!